- Selena Gomez’s new documentary, My Mind & Me, premiered Friday on Apple TV+.
- The film shows Gomez spiraling toward a mental health crisis during his 2016 “Revival” tour.
- In one clip, Gomez’s former assistant says the singer was contemplating suicide and her eyes were “black.”
“Selena Gomez: My Mind & Me” opens the singer’s “psychotic break” in 2018 when she was rushed to the hospital.
The new Apple TV+ documentary, which premiered Friday, kicks off with footage from Gomez’s “Revival” tour in 2016. During her rehearsals and on tour, she was spiraling toward a mental health crisis that led to her canceling her tour after 55 performances.
“At one point she was like, ‘I don’t want to live right now. I don’t want to live,'” Gomez’s former assistant Teresa Marie Mingus said in an interview clip. , what?”
“It was one of those moments when you look in her eyes and there’s nothing there,” Mingus continued. I have to go home.’
Gomez’s best friend, Raquel Stevens, also opened up about the turmoil and pain she endured at the time.
“We had to have a really serious conversation with her. ‘What’s going on?’ I can’t explain. It was like, ‘I wish you could feel what it’s like to be in my head,'” Stevens said of Gomez.
“It was so chaotic and I remember her hearing all these voices,” Stephens continued. caused.”
2017, Gomez underwent a life-saving kidney transplant Just what she needed as a result of lupus. A year later, she suffered further health complications, exacerbating her deteriorating mental state. taken to a mental hospital.
Stevens said of Gomez, “If I had seen what I saw while she was in a mental hospital, I wouldn’t have recognized her at all.
The superstar’s mother, Mandy Teefey, added that Gomez’s family found out about her “mental breakdown.” TMZ.
“I was afraid she would die,” Teefey said. “It’s a miracle that she was rescued. But there was always the fear that it would happen again, and it hurt us so much.”
In a narration, Gomez reflected on her experience at the facility. diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
“To be honest, I didn’t want to go to a mental hospital,” she said. “But I didn’t want to be trapped inside myself anymore. I thought my life was over. I was like, ‘This is who I will be forever.'”
Later in the documentary, Gomez is shown opening up to a local nursing student about her thoughts of self-harm during a volunteer trip to Kenya in 2019.
she recently said rolling stone As editor Alex Morris paraphrased, she “had never actually attempted suicide, but spent several years pondering it.”
“I thought the world would be better off if I wasn’t there,” Gomez told Morris.
“If it wasn’t for my psychotic break, if it wasn’t for lupus, if it wasn’t for my diagnosis, I would never be here,” she added later in the interview. I think I’m going to be another annoying person who just wants to wear nice clothes.