sell sunset Alum Maya Vander reveal their anguish abortion She faced last year.
Despite knowing deep down that the loss could not have been prevented, Vander tells PEOPLE EXCLUSIVELY that he wants them to listen to their gut because they can’t help but blame themselves.
“I’m not alone and to this day I feel guilty, so it helps to know it’s not my fault,” the 40-year-old says. 1060 real estate app. “I should have known better.”
In December 2021, the mother of two took to social media to announce the news she had. Stillborn at 38 weeks pregnant with son Mason. Six months later, Vander lost another baby and miscarried at 10 weeks.
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When Vander began to feel less mobile during her pregnancy, she scheduled a private ultrasound, which showed Mason’s heartbeat to be perfectly fine. At that time, Vander says she was relieved to hear this information, but she still admits that something went wrong with her.
Maya Vander Group founder said: “I am educated, but my baby [was] I am going through some kind of pain. Heart rate was good and the cord was away from my neck. It’s like, ‘Okay, that’s perfect. Maybe I’m delusional. I want women to know that and listen to their instincts.”
Vander still struggles with the pain of the loss, but would like to add another sibling to his son Aiden, 3, and daughter Elle, 2.
“I still want another baby after she died eight months ago,” says the realtor. “We’ll see what happens, but I’m taking it easy. Work and family and friends.” , and spend each day focusing on one’s post in life.” I sell sunsets. I can’t complain. I am very, very lucky. ”
Vander and her husband, David Miller, are already looking to add another small child to their family.
“It’s scary,” says Vander. “For sure on the one hand, I’m happy and lucky. I can move on and be happy with my two beautiful children, but I still feel a huge, huge void when I go through such a loss.” For me it’s a way to replace it. I still can’t let go of the fact that I was able to have a 9 month old baby.
The Israeli native hopes to receive good news sooner or later, but she’s starting the next phase of her life away from the Netflix series and has been busy with her kids and career. She builds her listings while virtually connecting with realtors around the world.
“It’s been really busy in Miami,” says Vander. “I have my own group. My team is now six people. I’ve been really busy with my kids.”
“walk away sell sunset It wasn’t an easy decision, but it was the right one. It’s the end of a chapter,” she adds. “I believe that every end has a new beginning. My beginning is my family in Miami and my job.